One should never say "never", but typically I never worry about money. I've been frugal and a saver most of my life; I know how to get a good bargain; some would call me cheap. I have four children so I've learned how to stretch a dollar and look good doing it. I believe in the word "SALE". When I work, I'm not one of those folks stressing about, 'When do we get paid?" Some times I forget when pay day is. Because of this attitude, I've been asked if I'm rich. I know money is the currency of life and we need it to get things done, but I never ranked it higher than other things in my life. While I understand the importance of money and having it, money does not consume me. I don't think I spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about money (perhaps, I'm wrong).
So it is quite surprising to me, that within the last couple of months I'm really stressed out about money - particularly:
• Do I have enough?
• Can I afford this item?
• Why does it feel as if everything costs? Is nothing free anymore?
This stress can drive me crazy. Recently my laptop needed fixing and I took it in for repair. I was quite happy that it was under warranty, so I thought the repair would cost nothing. As it turns out, they're trying to blame me for the problems, citing physical damage and now all of a sudden the repair is estimated at $500.00 and counting. I've decided that I'm not repairing the laptop, but only after much angst about the cost, and questioning if these folks are for real. But my main concern in all of this, what guided my conversations with service techs - was the cost, and not the necessity of the laptop.
This mindset makes me angry and I don't like it. I guess this is why the Bible says
be anxious for nothing; because I realized the more anxious I became the more unproductive my feelings - anger, restlessness, helplessness and finally lashing out at those around me.
Writing this and praying about my recent anxiety around money really started to give me clarity and peace.
My God promises to provide; He tells me not to worry; He takes care of the birds and the lilies - how much more me?
Do you worry about money?
I would suggest turning this area over to the Lord. In praying, may you find the wisdom to learn how to manage your resources.